yea >.>

so, it's been two months since my last post, and it's nearly my 20th birthday.

yay me?

psh, yea okay.

so, i'm sick.

nothing unusual, except for the unwanted hospital visits, but whatever >.<

i guess i just wanted to come here and laugh/complain blah blah blah.

where should i start first? xD

i don't even know.

i'm just tired.

and....i think i want to stop being his friend.

yea, i know, shitty thing to say, but um, are we even friends anymore?

i don't even come up on his radar.

*sighs* it's whatever as of right now i guess.

i'm not enough of an ass-kisser to be good enough to be his friend anymore, and maybe that's better than the stress.

maybe i'm just not good enough for anything