I came to the lab at 9pm....it's 3am....
Nice one Shelly. fucking awesome.
I blame today's events, my depression and my overall laziness on this one....
Although, I'm right disgusted with myself now, almost to the point where I want to empty my stomach.
I just feel like uber-shit right now.
I can't even write it on here for fear that my 'business' will be spread around, even though I'm sure that no one will ever read this.
It kind of makes me sad, and then makes me think of things i try to avoid concentrating on because then my depression comes back full force and I have nothing and no reason to stop it.
Gag.
Fuck.
Damn.
Sigh, it's getting to the point where I'm starting to hate myself....
Or maybe just my decisions.
And I really don't know if I'm going to be able to do anything to change....
Maybe I do need to take a break from everybody.
To free myself.
Maybe................
